Why Am I So Angry?

Today I realized how angry I am with life. I come to work already knowing who I'm going to speak to and who I'm not. Who I will smile at and who I won't. I already know I will have to sneak and eat my snicker bar because my co-worker asks for a piece of anything he sees. I will give the boss a fake smile, rush through my day only to pick up my children with a hidden frown. I'm sad because when I pick my children up, my second job starts. I go home cook and clean and play teacher for at least 2 hours while they question me about every other question on their homework. I have no friends to call and release my frustration to because I've isolated myself. So my phone doesnt ring unless its my parents and half the time I dont answer. After breaking up fights and picking up what I've already picked up, bath time, reading time, bed time. No me time. What is me time? How can I get a little enjoyment out of my day? I figured it out today. By being loving. Tomorrow I will speak to everyone with a geniune smile. I will try to utilize my YMCA membership more frequently...I could always get a 30 min workout in before the boys need picked up. That will definetly refresh me. Pick up my boys and leave the frustration with Yesterday. Take my time with them and their homework, make evenings at home light instead of tense. After they go to bed, I will read a chapter of one of my unfinished books. Pray. Then my bedtime. I've gone through life angry with the decisions I've made and the burden is far to heavy to carry. Ive buried the burden with this post. I know tomorrow will be better because I'm shaping my day the right way. Epiphany.