How Can I Become Whole?

I have to QUIT! I've been on my job for twelve years. A great job that pays very well and has great benefits. Why leave you ask? Because this is not my destiny. I'm so much bigger than this. I have become comfortable with being comfortable. My father works in the upper part of the company and while his presence is definetly a gift, its also a curse. I'm like a little girl around here, even though I'm 30years old. If I'm late to work, my dad knows. If I argue with a co worker, my dad knows. I have a position through work that I only hold because I feel forced by my father. I want out. I have no college education. I go back and forth with school but because of me having zero family support and working weird winter hours,  I have to constantly quit and put it off. This year I was determined to finish school, but Indiana Weslynn said I owed them $1200 for a class I hadnt even taken. Long story short, they kicked me out until I can repay the funds. *SIGH* So i wonder, what is God's plan for me? Maybe its not meant for me to finish school because I've tried every way but up to finish but something keeps going wrong. I believe my calling is to write, but I want to sit still and think. And Listen. What am I here for? I know for sure its not to drive these trucks around, I've well worn out my welcome here. Hmmmm....